Top eleven sad songs

I'd make a youtube video but that takes uploading and editing and cutting and pasting and time and im a lazy bitch.

Eleven - Vermillion Pt. 2 - Slipknot
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DoTUIe1-2fo
Ten - The Blowers Daughter - Damien Rice
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8ThuXEDvCZk&feature=related
Nine - Breath Me - Sia
http://youtube.com/watch?v=U6PGrub3jUc
Eight - Our Hell - Emily Haines
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rwMj8pGpIKE
Seven - Your Own Disaster - Taking Back Sunday
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MP-qjM6Hd50
Six - Strange & Beautiful - Aqualung
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=R6TsudVtVKo&feature=related
Five - Street Spirit - Radiohead
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BrZTNhW44-o
Four - Between The Bars (cover) - Emily Haines
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yM5kCRrZ2ZE
Three - Mercury Rising - From Autumn To Ashes
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tp_93eIFYRo
Two - Sunday Drive - The Early November
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0BiNUCc2wcQ&feature=related
One - 9 Crimes - Damien Rice
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aHW3BTF5pWY

You may not agree with any of this, but thats the point of this, it is MY top ten, so i have personal attachments to certain songs on that list which make them sad songs to me.

Cheer Up Mr. Grumpy.

This has turned into the typical apathetic shitty blog and I hate it. So on a lighter note I want to just have a memory of days and people I never want to forget.

Confession.

Late at night, when everything is quiet and all i can hear is my own thoughts, I can feel myself growing up. Changing and growing apart more and more from people I held close and it scares me. It scares me enough to stay awake and want to live in the last moment, then the last, then the last. I hate this.

What I'll never admit.

Some days I feel pointless. I feel boring, and a waste of space. I want to scream till you look at me, but you don't. I'm trying to hold it together but the more I do, it feels like everything is falling apart. This is to the nights where smoke filled the air, the nights we couldn't walk, or talk, or remember. This is to everything up to now.
Drink up baby.